Around the Munger home, Mondays can be slightly hectic. I have to go back to work. Dear Husband has to go back to work, and Eva is well...needy. She whines more. She wants to be held more. She feels the disturbance in the force. The Family Force. She has always been this way on Mondays. Her sleep is always off, she usually gets up before 6 am, has late naps and goes to bed late. Since I started running, there is the added routine on Monday. It seems to have helped her. She is more relaxed and tends to not be as needy. And I have figured it out. Today, we couldnt go running. I have the week off but ironically , my jeep's brakes went out and we needed to get them fixed. Her routine was off. Right? WRONG. Its me. Its my stress that she is feeding off of. Its my worry. I was very stressed while waiting for the final $$ estimate. Then wondering if it would get done in time. Waiting anxiously at home by the stupid phone. When we finally picked up the jeep at 4 pm- that is when our day started getting BETTER. My sweet baby said " its a great day huh, momma?" " Yes baby it is a great day. " I did not get a chance to go running. Instead I colored and cut bricks and sticks, and hay for a ship that my daughter wants to build to get away fromn the wolfie. We made raccoon and duckie paper puppets- oh so fun! And of course, ate yummy food! Four hours later at an UNPRECEDENTED TIME... she was winding down from her bath and bedtime routine...She fell asleep at 9. Shes my little precious, and I forget so much because she can communicate so well. I forget what a little conduit she still is to her mother. She feels my stress and worry as much as I do. And I have always hated Mondays because I have to leave her. But all she feels is the stress. She doesn't understand the why....I am blogging this because I think its a real breakthrough to our children's behaviors. Can we step outside of the "trouble" and check on our own mood and temperment of the moment. Perhaps, just perhaps we are the cause...The funny thing about the running is that it has released me from the work stress VERY QUICKLY after work...which is of course why my little E has been better when I run. I am EMOTIONALLY BETTER. Geez, Nellie is gonna have a hay day with this one!
On another note, we Type A personalities always strive to do more with our days than can really be done, then FEEL BADLY when its not accomplished. BALANCE is my mantra word for the year...not for my running mind you- thats usually - Go, or breathe, or just push....lol...still working on a really cool word that can make me go faster....lol but I am a rudimentary runner. Like if anyone asked me what I think about when I am at the breaking point of the run and just want to quit and get a ice cream cone, I am counting. Simple counts, 1...2... then to 20 then to 40 then to 60 then back to the beginning. All these gazelle runners with their long lean legs all primed for leaping ...they probably have some cool word like warrior princess HA! .....HEHEHEHEH ok I am gonna stop the ramble train right there. Can you tell I missed running today? Have a week off from my paying job. So happy about that. Missed blogging these last few weeks. Really really exited its June in one day. I love June! Its not blazing hot, my veggies are starting to blossom- which meand I should have some zuccinis any DAY NOW ( they magically grow overnight you know) and some tomatoes too- though my poor maters have some little buggies on em....gonna have to go google that!
Happy monday ya'll!
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