IVE BEEN IN THE WEEDS

"Im in the weeds"- you know that feeling - there you are driving along the road of life and somehow inexpilcably, without your permission, your best intentions get waylaid. You'e in the weeds, or the "mud" or whatever it is that keeps you going along your merry path.
It sucks. I don't like being here. And I am one who usually spins her wheels long and hard to get back on my PATH.
I thought I' d pulled out a few weeks ago when I recieved some disappointing news  from work.
Its just work afterall...I have these other blessings my little family...and oh, they are so dear to me!
And God has a Plan. Oh YES HE DOES.
So, last week, I heard some negative stuff about me. I know. I couldn't believe it either! And it hurt. Wow. What makes people think that its ok to tear eachother down?
Gossip is bad for so many reasons. We know not how far reaching it is. This time- it got back to the source- me..AND IT THREW ME OFF MY PATH.
Bummer.
So I have spent the last 4 days in a funk. Fussy, sad and cranky with myself. Ever get one little criticism and all of a sudden- all your inner speak reminds you of EVERYTHING YOU DO WRONG?  Your house isnt clean enough-or prettily decorated enough- why cant you just make those cute things to decorate?  your child doesnt eat enough veggies, YOU DONT  eat enough veggies, you procrastinate, you have weeds- the real kind in your back yard, and there are a million things that need to be done- and there you are WASTING TIME SLEEPING.  Well, that added to my work stuff....made for a cranky Ruth. Ever feel so irritated with yourself-others start irritating you?
Yep. That was me too. AND YET HERES MY FAMILY'S REACTIONS:
 My husband helped me do craft projects , made me GO BACK TO BED  when I had a migraine and - by watching E gave me some time to myself.  Not to mention what happens to my spirit when he physically wraps his arms about me....I feel healed. Too bad I  cant take his arms with me to WORK! When E and I went shopping and she joyfully talked on her pretend cell phone about our shopping trip- and there is NOTHING  like your child wrapping their tiny arms around you telling you - in spite of your flawed self- you are the one they love. What irony. She who is so innocent and perfect- loves me ...sound familiar? She is a perfect example of Our Heavenly Father...but I digress....
I couldn't shake my fussiness. I figured it out. I prayed, I read the scriptures, I listened to my family's love and finally tonight I realized I needed to regurgitate  through words. I always felt better when I wrote it all down. And so I thought what better place but here on my little blog. 
So, even though I am not financially rich...I have SO MUCH RICHNESS IN MY LIFE .
MY JEWELS:
FAITH, FAMILY, LOVE, CREATIVITY, ABILITY TO UNDERSTAND AND TRULY HUMBLE MYSELF TO HIS WILL..(.WELL EVENTUALLY! ;)
My dear Husband has been worried. I am the happy hyper one in the relationship. The funk has gone on for too long. I have spun my last wheel- I am back on track ya'll- be prepared ..here comes some pictures of what I did this weekend!

a brooch I made a friend and chicken emchilada soup....yummo!